With changing seasons, both physically and mentally/spiritually, there’s this underlying feeling of shame or guilt. Shame concerning what could have been, what should have been, what did happen that shouldn’t have, how your actions/behaviors played a part, etc. Then comes the fear; fear of what if that happens again, fear of the unknown. Then you find yourself stagnant; only looking back and forward, never looking at what is in the present.
Right now, in this present moment, do you feel shame? What is the shame you feel? Where does that shame stem from? Does that shame come from others perception of you, or within yourself? All of these are questions we must ask ourselves when we begin to feel this way.
In order to make a choice that will result in an outcome other than shame, we must first recognize and be aware of the shame that we feel, and most importantly, why. I would say that in most cases, the shame I have felt stemmed from not being in my truth. You would assume that not living in my truth is easy to recognize, but how many times do we just go with flow; chasing a goal or doing a task, simply trying to get somewhere. Then we don’t realize until we’re either in too deep or not deep enough; how did we even get here? This is where my shame steps in; “this isn’t what I wanted for myself, this isn’t my truth, this does not align with what God created me to be.” Being aware of this shame is the first step to change the negative feelings into positive outcomes.